Have Anxiety and Depression??

JTM88

I've never been officially diagnosed with anxiety, but I'm pretty sure I have it along with self esteem issues. Whenever I'm in a slightly uncomfortable situation I feel like I shut down.

For example when I went to the job interview for the company I'm at now I felt like I couldn't even walk through the parking garage. All I could feel was this giant weight on my body and all I wanted to do was sit down in the corner. The thing was I was perfectly qualified for the job and had the exact experience they were looking for, and I new that, but I still felt like I couldn't move.

I started going back to college last year and so far I've been doing great Last semester I had a 3.5 GPA and so far this semester I have a 4.0. However I'm terrified of public speaking, and not just like a little uncomfortable, but like I feel like I can't function. So the only class I'm worried about taking is public speaking. And the thing is I know it's not a big deal. I genuinely don't really care what other people think, but something in my mind says otherwise.

I also have this thing where no matter what I accomplish I never feel like it's any thing special. In my mind I think that since other people have done this then of course I should be able to do it. It really sucks, because things that other people get excited about doing I just feel ho hum about.

So, yeah, I don't really know what to do about it.

Sorry if it doesn't make sense, but I don't really talk about my struggles much. I usually just try to cover them up with jokes.

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