Found a vid on youtube that describes my issue perfectly.
"First rev is with the clutch pedal out, second is with the pedal pressed in"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ne6V8WQ_0Pg
The guy who posted that video said "turns out it was the input shaft. had to get the transmission replaced" ... god i really hope not, i just spent a ton of money to fix this csc issue.