Hello, my name is Jennifer I'm Lukas' wife (zakimak). I thought I'll post this reading of how I feel.
TO MY LOVE, MY HONEY...
Such an amazing man/husband/father, so wonderful and so full of life
A strong man and wise, a man to lean upon and trust
Holding me against him so warm and sweet, I’m his wife and his angel he say
Kissing me tenderly, he gathered my soul, holding it tight
I felt so safe, so desired, so loved the world was my play yard, my lala land with no trouble or strife
Then came the wild wind, the storm of disease -CANCER taking him from me, US
Breath by breath my heart shattered, his strength waned, but he fought a good fight
Now he is gone, I see him here no more only in dreams and the whisper of my mind can he live the malignant demon, the destroyer of life, took my honey from me
Every night I wonder why he has to go he has to die
Every night I lay thinking why I am sitting here having a cry
Every night I think the worse who fault was it was it a curse
Every night I lay to sleep cuddle my pillow and begin to weep
Why it was him and not me, he is such a delight
His suffering and pain, his fear and his doubts
Why him and not me, he doesn’t deserve pain
His beauty and grace, his compassion and joy
Why him and not me, life is so… why?
It’s hard to explain just how I feel
This moment in my life just seems so unreal
It was only months ago you were up and on the go
No one could have imagined that this would unfold
Into a nightmare that we can’t escape
The site of you in so much pain, distress and despair
I wish God/Buddha would just take you there
Away from the struggle you are fighting so hard, you never gave up
To a place of serenity where you will be peaceful and calm
I never thought the day would arrive that I would watch my husband die
But today it seems the time is near, your sweet voice I will no longer hear
Your smile, your XOXO and your loving ways I will always treasure
You have left a hallmark in our hearts that will last forever and ever and ever.
RIP my honey… We will be forever yours. We love you!
"LOVE LAUGH LIVE everyday as if it's your last" - Lukas Lou Cam
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