I should probably just stop discussing it as I'm being labeled an idiot and ignorant to what advice you guys are giving me. Which is not the case.
However I do see that I can't convey my desires to you in a way you guys understand.
Are my goals high? Yes. Is my process the standard? No. So it doesn't work to most people. I'm not asking you to agree with it. But again, I'm just gonna stop talking about it so I don't clutter up Steve's thread with more of my nonsense.